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Founded in 2022 – Documenting the intrusive thoughts of a lifelong journey with anxiety, and trying to figure out the reasonable ways forward. I'm tired.


Post Prompt * “Don’t pick up the phone” ep. 3 ~20mins mark

CW: This documentary talks about acts of sexual violence, with victims described as young men and women, where there are elements of good representatives taking actions in systems (ie. police), while there obvious and at times unnamed absences of actions in systems that are of great concern (ie. HELLO, MORE POLICE? DAFUQ IS HAPPENING?, HOLY SHIT – THE CORPORATIONS KNEW WHAT FOR HOW LONG?)
Proceed at your own risk.

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McDonald’s lawyer’s suggesting young woman (who has been stripped naked (minor?) by her, presumably previously trusted, colleagues) was not held captive because she was left alone for 10 minutes, and at minimum at that point could have clearly walked out couldn’t she?

Her clothes were not only taken by colleagues, but her car keys as well, and put into the victim’s own vehicle. thus – victim would have to assume any action she takes, those won’t be available to her.

So let’s say she hypothetically walks out… TO WHERE???

No one in her place of work has showed up to help her, and instead she has been exposed to greater risk each time a new individual is introduced – in what fucking world does walking out into the street seem *safer*??? I mean, supposedly, this is all happening at the behest of the police and they may show up at any moment to take her away to what at this point cannot possibly seem like it is going to increase her safety…

I feel like it’s hard for some people to play the tape further than, “I believe I would have had the strength to see something was wrong, and take action – I would have walked out of there, and then I would have figured it out”.
Maybe you even already think you know what you would have done next, maybe your plan actually could work.

I know I’ve thought that.

With mixed feelings, this is where I will give credit to AnxietyBrain, who will kindly intrude with:
“SORRY MOTHERFUCKER – YOU’RE STILL A FALLIABLE HUMAN PIECE OF SHIT”

30 years of negotiating with AnxietyBrain has taught me to interpret these messages a little more rationally and thoroughly.

And what it is more accurately trying to SCREAM at me right now is:
“You’ve made a couple big errors there buds.
Number A: You have made the assumption that this thought you’ve had for, whatever reason (a combination of life experience, privilege, education, opportunity, luck?????), that this other person will some how have access to that same solution – oh, and you would still have to *BOTH* be right.
And really, if you consider the diversity of human experience, you have to be willing to consider, and accept, that it is likely there are people who wouldn’t and won’t think of that solution – so it’s unfair to judge another person by that standard.
Plus your solution probably sucks anyway, idiot.”

Okay there AnxietyBrain, now you’re just getting me-

“SUBPARAGRAPH &
Remember when you got all nerd excited when they started talking about the Milgram (***LINK TO GOOD VIDEO ON MILGRAM EXPERIMENTS) experiments because those lessons on authority – while an ethical nightmare by today’s standards for the experiences of those participants (the lessons of traumatic impact on some of those participants*** CAN I FIND THIS**** are also supremely valuable) – are so fucking important to us?

Yeah. You thought you were so fucking smarty farty. AND YOU STILL DIDN’T SEE THE CORPORATE LIABILITY SHIT COMING.
The person perpetuating this shit had a tried tested and true system. It’s a depressing and probably incredibly valuable case study that never should have happened – because there were systems that could have done shit to prevent this person for ever being in this vulnerable position.
So you better make damn sure you tell everyone we need to listen to victims, because McDonald’s had BOXES of documents and paid money to keep quiet a pattern of abuse under their watch, and consider what it might feel like to go up agai-“

Okay AB, humility – got it, can we move on?

“Yeah, look how much space you just let me take up, and how that’s now centring yourself in the conver-“

Would you shut the fuck up?

Ugh, till next time.

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