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Founded in 2022 – Documenting the intrusive thoughts of a lifelong journey with anxiety, and trying to figure out the reasonable ways forward. I'm tired.

Things my brain chews on…

I watch quite a few documentaries, I try to find things that may be outside of my worldview, or experience, or perspective. Sometimes about things and people that I deeply disagree with, and/or make me pretty uncomfortable.

I do not want to be prescriptive, or suggest that this is a ‘good’ thing to do – but my whole life I’ve felt like I’ve struggled to make sense of the things around me. My anxiety problems and mild OCD type things tend to have me fixate a bit on those things, and really try to step out of what all my bullshit and attitudes and trauma try to tell me something looks like, and consider what *could* it look like from another perspective?

I have trouble believing in ‘bad guy’ narratives. I’ve seen too much, and known too many people who have been painted with that brush. The thing that gives them that bad guy title is often behaviour – but that behaviour is not a whole person. We need to be careful how much we are losing the person sometimes.

A lot of what I will list as content below I believe are examples of where we have lost sight of the person – and maybe thought systems we were taught to believe were fair and just would support these people, and target the right people. There’s a lot that is not going well, is not going right, and needs us all to reflect and ask the people in our communities to do the same – and ask our leaders to reflect, and figure out how we can change (I probably only really feel most comfortable speaking to my peers on this, which would be white North Americans – we all have a great opportunity to be listening to some of the communities that have been engaged in this work for a long time)

I’m going to try and share what I digest, as it may inform some perspectives you read about elsewhere in this blog. I’m going to try and list where you can watch the things (at least in Canada streaming services), and may link to some of the reflections things gave me as I watched them, and how I reflect on them in a context that relates to my community – as many of these events absolutely could not be directly compared to my lived experience, or would I want to presume what degree, if any, of understanding I may have of experiences so outside the context I know.

Please presume any particular title may contain sensitive material. Until I can find time to better categorize and specify what themes may be contained in which titles – look up a synopsis and be prepared that there may be triggering themes, and I trust folks to self-select what content they don’t feel comfortable with.

This list is in no particular order at this time – all titles link to corresponding IMDB pages.

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